BlazeRocket

Hello, DeviantArt. It is I, BlazeRocket, here with another whiney journal entry.

I just wanted to appologize to all of you, because I've been so absent. I'm still working on Evo things, I swear, I just... I haven't been uploading. Or finishing them, really. I haven't been finishing much of anything, these days.

See, the long and short of it is I'm depressed. Like... really. It's not good. It's killing, among other things, not only my ability to be creative, but my desire to be creative. All I want to do any more is sleep.

I want to want to be creative. So it's not all lost. And when I DO force myself to pick up a pencil for my own enjoyment, it's always Evo that comes out of it. My love of Evo is the only constant in my life, atm.

So yes. If you're one of the people who's only just started watching me, I'm sorry o__o I want to kick this funk and get back to my old self, I really do. If you've been watching me for a while, or have been waiting for me to update the EOC... god, I'm SO sorry.

I'm trying to get better. Hopefully I'll be there soon. But until such a time as that, I just wanted to give a heads up about the lack of updates. I'm still here. I'm just a little hollow.

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Recently, I uprooted and moved, again. I've moved before, but this was still a new experience for me. When I moved from Montana to Washington, I took a week and toured the different cities I was thinking about moving to, so I would know which one to pick. When I moved to Japan, I had a career waiting for me, and a network of forigners who were relocating, just like me, to rely on. When I moved to Seattle, I had school work to engross me, and introduce me to new people. But when I moved to California... I had no job waiting for me, and only the vaguest idea of what the city was like.


It's been about four months now, I guess, and I can honestly say I've never felt so crushingly, disparingly, crippelingly alone in my entire life.


I have job offers, so things are finally moving forward in that department, and I've found a Swing Dance scene that's active and just a walk+bus ride away, but none of that changes the fact that I feel alone.

I've had a lot of luck, in the past, making friends on the internet. Especially here, on DA.  So I'm casting my net, once again. I know it's sort of egotistical, asking people to come to me, but I clearly fail at making friends, or this wouldn't be a problem.

I'm very fandom oriented, so if you'd like to chat about X-men: Evolution, that would make my day. I also enjoy escaping my own crushingly lonely life by pretending to be other people-- you know. Role Play. I'm a terrible speller, but I do try, really hard, to be a good RP partner, and to give as good as I get.

So. I guess. If any of that tickles your fancy-- chatting or Role Playing, or whatever-- send me a note?




I'd really appreciate it.

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First up-- yesterday, BARELY yesterday, but yesterday none the less, was my dear friend 's birthday. I owe her SO many presents it's not even funny o____o I was TRYING to get my new set up, er, set up in time to wish her TIMELY birthdays, buuuut, clearly that didn't happen. But just by BARELY.

But anywho. It's muffinelf's birthday, she's awesome awesome, and everyone should wish her a (late) happy birthday. Draw her pictures of Toad. She likes that ^_^

Meanwhile-- Yes! A new set up. I have recently moved. AGAIN. I... seem to do that a lot, given how much I dislike moving. >_> Yet MOVE I DO. And never little moves. Always crossing, like, minimum two states. This time, I've moved Allllll the way to southern California. The move was long, and hard, but the weather is so worth it o____o
It's taken me longer than I care to admit to get my computer and internet back. I've been working on Evo comics, of ALL sorts-- Evo Everlasting, Ask Evo, Prize Comics I owe SOMEONE from since FOREVER AGO, plus a super seekret new comic I'm working on with someone else which is. Oh my god. So hillarious. And Evo. BOTH. You folks are gonna LOVE IT. But yeah. I only just now got everything set back up, so-- Whoo. Hopefully updates soon!

Speaking of updates... I admit I'm a bit disappointed at the lack of activity over at the Evo-Obsessed-Club. On the one hand, I realize I can't expect the same level of activity that I used have, right after such a hiatus. Not to mention, with a show like Evo that's off air, it's hard to find fans who are actually dedicated and active any more. Still, I got several notes, asking why the contests had stopped, and then when I finally go and put up a new contest... nothing. It's almost over and I've still not gotten ONE entry. Colour me disappointed. I'm wondering if I should give up my death-grip on the past, and accept that the fandom is just not the same now as it was back in 2000. I don't want to, though. Things were so good, and so fun back then.  Ahh well. I guess I'm just nostalgic.

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So, recently, a number of people have approached me asking for advice on how to go about making a X-men fan series. And by "a number" I totally mean "three" .... which is APPARENTLY enough to warrant an entire journal entry! WHOO!

Now- this should go without saying, but I'm going to make a point of it anyway- These are JUST MY TWO CENTS. God knows, I am a HORRIFIC writer. I come up with HORRIBLE ideas, my dialogue is stilted, and I can't write action to save my life. That said- I have been with X-men Evolution since day one (that's back in 2000, youngin's!), and been reading X-men comics even longer. I may not be able to write myself, but I know BADNESS when I see it. I push myself, and I push myself HARD to avoid falling into a number of traps that always PISS ME THE HELL OFF in others work. Which is probably why I rage so easily... If I can control the rampaging moron-thoughts in my head, and not spew them indiscriminately on to the internet, then WHY CANT YOU?! >.O ...  See, that, right there? That rage? That is why I don't read fan fiction any more. S'not healthy. Does that make me a hypocrite? You bet! Am I going to stop doing EE? HECK NO. And therein lies the dichotomy of being meeeeee.

However, that's all getting off track. I shall now attempt to talk about how to go about creating a fan series, and a few (read: THREE THOUSAND) common mistakes that make me want to punch baby animals. BECAUSE FANDOM R SRSS BSNS

First things first: the ONLY reason you should ever undertake something like this is if you have so many ideas, so much love for a show, so much drive that you can't stand it. YOU have to have a story to tell, and the tweaked out brain that won't let you rest if you don't. You can do a series without this, but odds are that it'll wither and die off sooner rather than later.

In the same branch of thinking, you have to do this for YOU. If you're planning on doing a series to get fans... stop. Just- just stop. Having people who enjoy your work is, of course, a bonus, and there's nothing wrong with throwing in a nod to them, but overall? A fan series is something you do for YOURSELF.  Yaay narcissism

Now, even though you're doing this for yourself... also keep in mind that it should be FUN. If you're enjoying creating the series, people will enjoy reading it. The minute it becomes an obligation in your life, then you've got a problem. There's nothing wrong with creating a schedule, and trying to stick to it, but remember: it's JUST FANDOM. It's not a project you can put in a portfolio, and it's CERTAINLY not something you'll ever get any money for. So if your friend calls you and wants to hang out, and you find yourself sitting at home muttering ANGRILY to yourself how you COULD be hanging out with your friend, but nooo, you had to finish this stupid comic for the update tomorrow? Stop. Put the pencil down. Go play. I promise you the fandom will still be there when you get back.

Specifically speaking on fan comics now, I can guarantee that if you do a comic long enough, eventually you'll look back on that first page and go "... DAYUM. I freakin' SUCKED back then. I have IMPROVED SO MUCH." This is a good thing! You're developing your critical eye, and improving your drawing skills! Hurrah! The problem will come when that little voice starts whispering in your head "Hey, you know what- I should go back and redraw this page. Just so it looks more like the others, and so I don't have to see my old terrible drawings anymore ." This is a mistake. Because you have now just created a loop. You'll re-do these first few pages, but then, you'll get to the middle pages- and your work is CERTAINLY better than that now, so you'll just redo THOSE pages too... and now you're caught back up to where you were, but- heck you've improved again, so you'll redraw THOSE, and- well now you've improved and those FIRST pages look like crap again! Shit! Best redraw them AGAIN... Every comic I've seen, fan comic or no, that has tried to go back and re-draw old pages has spluttered, stalled, and ultimately just ended. Don't be afraid of your old work. Keep it around as a reminder of how much better you've got, and PUSH EVER ONWARDS. Don't ever go backwards.

A BIG one, this, but... Just... just don't use OCs. Just freakin' don't. You're doing a FAN SERIES. You know why people are fans? Because they fell in love with the characters and stories of the show. You know what no one cares about? Your OC. It's tough to hear, I know. Your friends will suck you off, I promise you, telling you how awesome your story is, and how cool your OC is, and how much they love your comic. The rest of the universe, will, at best, roll their eyes and move on. I know this contradicts the first point, which is to do this for yourself, but if you're looking to be successful outside your circle jerk of friends, then leave the OCs out. If you simply MUST introduce your own character into a starring role, introduce them gradually. Start your comic out with just canon characters, and then slowly, over time, introduce your character into the comic. Small parts at first, slowly giving me more and more screen time. This is still no guarantee that people won't roll their eyes, but they may be willing to give you a chance, this way.

But seriously. Don't use OCs.

Here's one specific to Evo that I am... INSANELY guilty of! If you're going to use Comic!Canon to influence your Evo!Canon, then for the love of god, try and integrate it naturally. And if there's Evo canon that already contradicts your desired point of Comic!Canon (*cough*Kurt's eyes*cough*) then guess what? TOUGH NOOGIES. (there's actually more that I'm more guilty of but... I'm actively trying to edit that out of the future scripts of EE, so YOU HAVEN'T SEEN IT YET AHAHAAHAHAHAHAHahem o.o) You're stuck with Evo!Canon. Suck it up, fellow comic fans. u.u

Remember: In Character Action = In Character Consequences. This is actually something I'm stealing from Role Play etiquette, but it applies here as well. If you're going to have a character take some action, say, Cyclops punches a police officer in the face (which... actually isn't in character, but more about that in the last point), then according to the displayed history of action taken by police in canon of Evo... Scott'sa headed to jail! Don't have the characters doing outrageous things without raising the stakes to match it. If you don't, the action falls flat, and loses all tension, as well as coming across as poorly written.  Nooo thankyou.

A good point for just life in general, but don't be a dick. Chances are, in your comic, you'll have your own OTPs that you wanna play with. That's fine (just keep the next point in mind). Be prepared to have rival pairing fans come out of the woodwork though. Is this dickish of them? Yes. yes it is. But don't be a dick back. Take the high road. This is... actually just good advice in general, so I'm going to amend this point to "avoid teh dramaz". A fan series will be your baby. You'll love it, and treasure it ways that are unnatural to sane people. Which means any slightly differing opinion, any criticism, any stupid comment will make you want to EXPLODE IN A RAGE at that person. ... or maybe that's just me o.o I do have anger management issues >.> Regardless! Take a step back from the keyboard. Take a breath. Just.. Just try not to be a drama llama. It's hard, I know. Belieeeeeeve me I know. o.o But try.

And now, for the BIGGEST one, the one which will segue directly into the common mistakes made... Keep your characters IN CHARACTER. Again, the reason people became fans in the first place was because they liked the characters, the plot, the stories. It behooves you to try and stay as close to these as possible. Waaaaaaaay too often (an yes, I'm looking at YOU, yaoi!fangirls >.O )  a character gets twisted around, until the only way they recognizable as themselves is by their name. I know we all wish that X would do Y to Z, but that's when you have to sit down and REALLY THINK. THINK about if X would ACTUALLY do that to Z. If Z would REALLY react in that way. My own personal pitfall is focusing SOLELY on my favourite characters, and having the side characters react in whatever way best facilitates my darlings looking awesome. But even if you don't really care about them- or even don't like them? It's still up to you to write them RIGHT, if you're going to include them. Trust me- the interactions will seem ALL THE MORE AWESOME, because they'll have that "ring 'o' canon" instead of just being mindless fan!fap. I'm not saying Gambit and Beast can't be ZOMG OTP, but you damn well best find a way to do it that's in-character and plausible for BOTH of them, or it'll just be silly fan Possession Sues.


Jesus sparkling christ on a cracker I'm a hypocrite. >_> MOVING ON!

Here's some of the more common pitfalls that cause me rage! In alphabetical order. OooooOOOOooo! A lot of these have no basis in canon, but some do. PERSONALLY, I think they're all worth heeding >.> There are... a lot more than these, but these are the ones I see a lot, that make me face palm the hardest.

Avalanche
S'ok, as an adopted child who was in the system, let me bring the good news to you all. ORPHANAGES DO NOT EXIST IN AMERICA ANY MORE. Not the way you all are writing them at least. There are foster homes, and the occasional religious organization that creates a home for orphaned children but orphanages? .... no. Evo's geo-political-economic society is VERY similar to ours, in this world, just plus!mutants. It stands to reason they would not have orphanages either. Please, please, please, for the love of god, stop having Lance's origin stories set in an orphanage. It's overly dramatic, uninformed, and just... no. Plus: It says, IN THE SHOW, they say he's in "Foster Care." Check out "The X-Impulse" if you don't believe me.  Foster Care is NOT an orphanage. They are VERY DIFFERENT THINGS.
Lance is not, to any displayable means, Mexican. He doesn't have an accent. At no point does he bust out a "Dios mio!" Stop making his speak Spanish. This guy probably isn't even passing English o______o
And a creepy one! Stop making Lance a rapist. Does he have rage issues? Yes. Yes he does. Is he the kind of guy who rapes? .... noooooo. . Punch, maybe! He's big on hitting and oh man does he LOVE grabbing! But- I find it incredibly OOC to turn him into a rapist. So. No. Bad fandom! no cookie! If you turn Lance into your default rapist!bad guy, you are a bad writer, and you should feel bad. And probably stop writing.

Blob
It's ok to write about fat people! If I had a nickle for every time Freddy just ISN'T WITH THE BROTHERHOOD... I'd have a lot of nickles. Don't leave him out just because you think he's "gross" (you shallow fuck). HE'S THERE, DEAL WITH IT, or STOP WRITING THE BROTHERHOOD.
Again with the rape thing? Ok, can we just say from here on out that NONE OF THE BROTHERHOOD are the types to rape? Yeah, I know, Freddy got all creeper and kidnapped Jean, but he would have beat her to death out of frustration and anger before he ever got around to unzipping his fly. STOP MAKING EVO GUYS RAPE PEOPLE, FANDOM. FUCKING. STOP IT. >.O

Cyclops
A sick in the mud? Oh hell yes. A RAGING ASSHOLE? Nooooo. Cyclops is a nice guy, with a strong moral comps and sense of responsibility. He's a stickler for the rules. Every time he tried to break rules in canon, it IMMEDIATELY came back to bite him in the ass. He's not going to be ordering people around, making them do the work for him, getting off on a power trip. He's a team player, and at the end of the day, genuinely cares about his teammates. Make him a hardass, yes, but don't forget that he also has a heart.
Also remember: He DOES have a sense of humor. He CAN take a joke. Don't have him blowing his shit over every little thing. Maybe a bunch of little things piled up over time, sure, but don't make him your generic cut-out Meanie Authority Figure.

Gambit
If'n ya'll have de Gambit or any ot'er character tahk lak diz in ya'll works? Y'need t'be shawt in de fahce, shure t'ing cherie! Ah wouldn' lahh t'ya'll.
In all seriousness, over-writing an accent is one of the sure ways to piss EVERYONE OFF EVER. I will go on record, and tell you right now that Marvel LIED TO ALL OF YOU. There is no reason fucking EVER, to right "I" as "Ah". EVER. STOP. DOING IT. In any given sentence, you should have maybe one or two dropped letters, and, at MOST, one misspelled word for the sake of pronunciation. Have some FAITH in your audience. You would be surprised how much a person can infer from just that. There is NO NEED to beat us over the head with it.
Gambit referring to himself in the 3rd person was a staple of XtAS. Not Evo.
Cajun and French are different. You can have him use both if you want, but at least figure out which is which, and use them right >/
NOT A TEENAGER, SORRY FANGIRLS. Gambit is, like the other Acolytes in Evo, Early to mid Twenties. He and Rogue can't have their teen-love because he's NOT A TEEN. They can have vaguely-statutory-love, but just give it up on the teen thing.

Jean
Surprisingly, Jean is NOT the epic bitch you want to make her into! She is a popular girl, and she does get jealous and a little overly girl!power at times, but really? Nooooot the epic cunt so many people write her to be. She's smart, good looking, caring, and empathic. She's not a manipulative, backstabbing whore. Stop projecting your high school insecurities onto her. It makes you look pathetic.

Magneto
Ughh *sigh* This one is hard, because... he was not always well written in canon, often times coming across as amazingly 1-dimensional, but just- remember he's NOT a cruel, heartless beast of a man. Driven? Yes. Cold? Probably! But... ehh. Try to remember his motivations. He was in the concentration camps in WWII. He as experienced the worst humanity has to offer, BUT! freaking BUT! He also has a family. And more than anything, he wants to create a perfect world for his family, where they can all be safe. The mission statement has branched out from that, clearly, but it's important to remember basic driving things. He's a hard man, because he has to be, but- don't make him more hard than he NEEDS to be.

Multiple
A CHILD! The youngest of both the Brotherhood and the X-men.
His powers are based on kinetic energy, and exponential. The "real" Jamie is not the only one who can duplicate. Every single one of his duplicates can ALSO duplicate.
The only mutant to have his powers since birth (not counting physical mutations, such as Kurt's ... general... entire body region >.>) Cannon ball did not rocket out of his mom's cooch, nor did Kitty Pryde just sort of fall out one day. Mutations from Birth are limited to Mr. Multiple here.

Mystique
The way most people write Jean is how they should be writing Mystique. She is one baaaad mother fu- ... *ahem* The OTHER thing about Mystique is that she's PAINFULLY smart. She's not going to go running willy-nilly into situations she doesn't know anything about. her powers make her a spy. She habitually gathers intel before missions, so is very rarely caught off guard. She's also not stupid. She won't antagonize a situation she can't win, and she won't just run around acting like... a stupid one-note villain.

Nightcrawler
OH SWEET JESUS WHERE TO BEGIN.
He's not a cutter. STOP THAT. The really, really neat thing about Kurt is that his life freakin SUCKS. I mean... just look at him. He has EVERY REASON IN THE WORLD to go be Mr. Emo Sad Angst Pants in the Sewer with the rest of the pity party, but that's the thing! he ISN'T. Kurt is a HAPPY GUY. He laughs. He makes jokes. He loves life. Especially now that he's at the institute! Yeah he's got bouts of depression, but in the end, he overcomes, reminds himself that God loves him and made him this way for a reason, and then goes out for a burger. To make him a goth depressed cutter is to take away the aspect of his personality that makes him an interesting character. "Oh, well, he's just HIDING his angst, so that the others th-" NO. STOP. SHUT UP. STOP DOING THAT.
Kurt's tail is part of his body. Like his fingers. Or his legs. Or his nose. It does not have a mind of its own. It might switch back and forth if he's aggravated, or droop if he's sad, but it won't sneak off and grab a Pepsi while he's not paying attention, or specifically act AGAINST his wishes, when he's actively thinking about it. He is not Magellan from Eureeka's Castle. Stop that.
Kurt is an incredibly gentle soul. He would never intentionally hurt anyone. And to take this one a step further. I shouldn't have to say this, but he's NOT A NAZI. >.O Jeeeesus.

Quicksilver
Oh. Fucking. Christ.
I... I don't know how to do this one without beating people with a board with a nail in it. LET ME TRY TO BE OBJECTIVE.
He's FUCKING FAST. Unless you're Jean Grey, or have somehow managed to sneak up on him from behind, you're not going to "catch him by the wrist" or "Pin him against the wall" or any of this bullshit. He will see you coming, laugh at you, let you get really close, then ZIP BEHIND YOU AND BITCH SLAP YOU.
He's not a fucking girl, and he's not girly. Is he lean? Yes. Is he meticulous and narcissistic? Yes. Is he a hysterical, incapable screaming femmy -albino-boy? NO. So STOP WRITING HIM LIKE THAT. He's not albino, and he's not feminine. LOOK AT HIS CHARACTER DESIGN. He's actually rather olive skinned, and the BOY has some MUSCLES. Yes, they're lean, in form with his power, but he's not a weakling, by any stretch of the imagination. He's not a "girl" and he's not "feminine." If you write him like this, you're twisting him so far out of character, he's no longer the character the rest of us love. Stop it. Go waist your shitty writing on your shitty OCs that no-one cares about. STOP SHITTING ON CHARACTERS PEOPLE LIKE WITH YOUR TERRIBLE WRITING.
He's a PERFECTIONIST and a REALIST. It means if he sees a situation is going poorly, and he will likely not come out on top, HE WILL RUN THE FUCK AWAY. Some call this cowardice. That's a fair interpretation, but I prefer to think of it as shrewdness. No seance in staying in a fight you've no chance at winning. THIS however, does not mean he can't fight. He's perfectly capable. Go back and watch the throws he executes on Scott and Evan in Speed and Spyke if you don't believe me. This is a guy who can punch you 50 times in the blink of an eye, if he wants. So stop making him a whaling girl!Substitute. SERIOUSLY. I WILL FUCKING END YOU.

Rogue
STOP WRITING "AH" FOR I. GUGHGHGHHGHG. GUGHHGHHHHHHHHH. I cannot possibly express to you how much this makes me instantly hate whatever it is I'm looking at. I could never really get on board with Rogue in the comics for THIS EXACT REASON. I know I'm not the only one who feels like this too.
Stop finding "Magical sudden ways" she can get around or control her powers. One of funnest aspect of Rogue is how her powers separate her from others. Nine times out of ten, people have her get around her power so she can make out and get it it ON with another person, which, if this is why you're going to do that? That's a CRAPPY REASON. Seriously, it reflects poorly on you, as a person. If, despite this, you're STILL going to have her get around her powers... Keep in mind that she has spent the last so many years of her life covered up, away from skin to-skin contact, and, depending on when in the time line you have this happen, at least a year training herself that touching = thoughts in her heads, pain (in some cases), danger for other people, and SHOULD BE AVOIDED AT ALL COSTS. You just have her JUMP ON UP IN THAT SEX after controlling her powers.... ugh. No. There would be mental barriers to get past, before she was comfortable touching anyone. Yeah, she's a teenager, and yeah, she may be horny as hell, but she's also EXTREMELY SKITTISH. Sooo... stop using Rogue as your surrogate Sex-Sue. It's disrespectful to the character >/

Sabertooth
Is not the type to settle down and get all lurvy with any of the canon characters of Evo. He MIGHT have had a kid with Mystique, but I will tell you now, that was some angry, violent as hell sex. He's not going to nurture, or protect ANY of the current cast members. I know he had such a relationship with Blink in the comics. But guess who's not in Evo. That's right. And guess who's never shown any inclination of paternal or romantic protectiveness towards ANYONE  in Evo? ... Sabertooth, to name one.

Scarlet Witch
... Not actually as Goth as you might think o.o
Her hair is red when she's "The Scarlet Witch" and black when she's "Wanda." It's not hair dye. It's her powers. If you need an expiation on how her powers work... thaaat's a topic for another time -___-

Shadowcat
ITTY BITTY KITTY TITTIES. Seriously, the girl's, like, an a-cup. For the love of god, stop giving her huge honking tits. Girls of all cup sizes can be beautiful, and to insinuate that Kitty needs bigger tits to be attractive is insulting to the character, and to women as a whole.
VERY INTELLIGENT. Kitty is a nerd in disguise. She may talk like a valley girl (though, never to the extent that people want to write it as), but this bitch is SMART.

Toad
Much like how Lance is no longer 'Dominic Petros' in Evo, Todd is no longer Mortimer Toynbee. THIS MEANS, he's not British anymore. He would not use British slang, and he would not talk with an accent. So, uhm.... stopit.
Todd is... Gross. Really, really gross. I know it's easy to look at the cartoon, and think "Aw, misunderstood bad boy! He just needs a girlfriend/boyfriend to believe in him, and..." let me stop you right there. The only way Todd will EVER get a significant other is if they have no sense of smell. I want you to imagine, in real life, a small guy, with greenish-grayish skin and overly large, yellowish eyes that BULGE out of his head, that match his yellowish-brown teeth that he OBVIOUSLY doesn't brush. This same guy has greasy, dirty hair, and INCREDIBLE BO due to the well known fact that he doesn't shower or bathe more often than once a month, despite being incredibly physically active. To top it off, you've seen this guy, OPENLY, in public eat bugs, off the ground, with an unnaturally long green tongue. And again- no brushing of the teeth, so dead-bug-and-dirt smell is just going to FESTER in there.
I love Toad. He is one of my FAVORITE CHARACTERS. But until he can get someone that can look past how he SMELLS, romance is just not in his cards.

Wolverine
Unlike other X-universe, Wolverine is extremely paternal in this universe. PATERNAL. NOT ROMANTIC. Please don't write him getting it on with the students. It's just creepy.

Xavier
I am the FIRST to lead the "Xavier is a dick" parade into "oh my god such a douche" camp, but the REALLY COOL THING about Xavier is that he is SUBTLE AS FUCK with his dickery. Unless you are seeing things from a 3rd person omniscient view, it's REALLY HARD to pick up on. So... don't have him being a dick OPENLY. He's not an evil stepfather, he's got cunning. And he DOES want what's best. for the most part, so don't forget that either.

And so ends this amazing journal of alienation. Is anyone still reading this? Have I managed to hit on at least one thing to piss everyone off? Anyone still want to be friends? Hello?

I will cap this of with a reminder: I know and am aware of what a hypocrite I am. Consider this a "learn from my mistakes" sort of message, or a "Do as I say, not as I do." Seriously, a LOT of the things I listed up there, are things that I have thought or done, and then over time come to understand better or regret. I'm TRYING to improve, and get better about it, I swear.

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With the recent earthquake in Japan, I have received several notes asking if I'm alright. I'm pleased to let you know: I am fine. I have just recently moved back to America, and so was not in Japan at the time of these earthquakes. However, many of my friends and co-workers were, and I have been very, very concerned for them. Thankfully, everyone's checked in, but there have been too many earthquakes recently for this to be the end of it. I just hope everyone stays safe and alive.

So- Thankyou for thinking of me! I am fine.




Meanwhile- the original reason I was going to update this journal is with... not sad news, but somewhat disappointing news, for me at least. Upon my re-entry into America-land, I have returned to school, not as a teacher this time, but as a student... again. I'm getting my associates in animation to go with my previously acquired bachelor of fine art (who can tell, I know, right?).  I'm attending a very work-intensive school. And the thing is- they don't give us busy work. Every assignment I get is something I NEED to do to acquire skills and knowledge to get me into the sort of career I need to be happy in life.

Which... doesn't leave me with a whole lot of free time.

All of which amounts to... EE is basically going on something of a reluctant hiatus. If I have TIME, I will absolutely put up some more pages, but right now, my class work really, really has to come first. I'm NOT going to stop- we're JUST getting to the good stuff. But updates are going to be a lot... slower. As if they hadn't been already. I'm just making it official, so you all know; I haven't given up or gotten board of it. I just... don't have time

In fact, my activity at DA is going to be pretty limited in general, right now. I had hoped to re-start contests at EOC in February, but, hah, clearly that didn't happen. Once the OC Tourney is over, I'll start running contests again, though probably not challenges for a bit, and that will be the extent of my activity.

I hope you all can bare with me while I finish up my schoolin' ^_^;

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